“Two years ago I was afraid of wanting anything. I figured wanting would lead to trying and trying would lead to failure. But now I find that I can’t stop wanting. I want to fly somewhere first class. I want to travel to Europe on a business trip. I want to get invited to the White House. I want to surprise myself. I want to be important. I want to be the best person I can be. I want to define myself instead of having someone define me. I want to win and have people be happy for me. I want to lose and get over it. I want to not be afraid of the unknown. I want to grow up to be generous and big hearted, the way people have been with me. I want an interesting and surprising life. It’s not that I think I’m gonna get all these things. I just want the possibility of getting them.”

— Tyra in Friday Night Lights

This quote befits me perfectly. Tyra wrote it as her college admissions essay. Wth, I don’t even remember what I wrote about!?

Think about it: I’m a ‘fraidy cat. I used to do everything with fear niggling at the back of my mind.

But I do want so many things. I don’t know if I really need to fly first class, ever, because I think it’s a HUGE waste of money. But of course I want to go to Europe on a business trip (guess I’m working at the right place). One of my 263,023 life goals is to meet the President — maybe a bunch of them in succession, like in my fave movie, Forrest Gump.

But most importantly, I want those last 11 lines. After working at Traveler, I’ve realized that I really could make a difference with my life, no matter what I end up doing. And I want to be myself, not be what other people want me to be. And I want to surround myself with people who are happy for me. I’ve dealt with too many people who have competed with me or tried to bring me down. GO AWAY. I am ecstatic for my beautiful, brilliant friends when they accomplish something, and I truly believe anyone who tries to bring you down is not a true friend. I don’t need them in my life.

And most most importantly, “I want to grow up to be generous and big hearted, the way people have been with me.” Giving back is the most important thing in the world, and part of me wants to be successful so I can mentor people and help them become successful too.

Oh! And as background, FNL (which looks like FML, I just noticed) is one of my FAVORITE shows on TV. Not just because I love sweaty athletes and almost-incestuous drama, it just has such an interesting storyline. And one of my favorite bands, Explosions in the Sky, plays constantly in the background.

Watch NBC shows! Of course I’m biased from interning there last year, but from what I hear, they need you to watch their shows. So watch Friday Night Lights!!! I’ll come over and watch re-runs with you, no joke.

My favorite part of this picture is Tim Riggins (Taylor Kitsch) on the very left. So dark and dreamy…

This post is so ADD-riddled, don’t you think? I need Adderall…